This is exactly how I feel every day of my life.
Finally somebody understands me.
Honestly, I’ve been fretting about the same thing for years, and I’ve just recently come to the conclusion that I don’t have to meet society’s standard of successfulness in order to be happy. I’ve been giving a go at living my life on my own terms and I’ve been so much happier. It’s just hard when it shoved down your throat everyday that youre a failure unless you live up to the “American dream”.